tired? lazy?

she's starting to crawl...but if she doesn't get a shot of redbull soon, she might not make it far...



she's moving...


taking a break!

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one year ago today

from the title of this post it seems as if I am about to write about Chloë's birth, or her first birthday...but no. The title refer to the day I went to the doctor for my 31st week pregnancy check up and instead of returning home, was rerouted to the hospital for what was to be a quick in and out visit for a steroid shot (to help develop Chloë's lungs) and instead of coming right home afterwards was admitted for proper full on hospital bed rest. My memories of Sibley hospital are many, and for all the ups and downs, through all the challenges, and scares, I'll be forever thankful to all the doctors and nurses who took care of me and my little pumpkin and helped ensure she stayed in my belly for a few extra weeks. So, this is what happened one year ago today.

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we're survivors!

so today marks day three of Chloë's daycare adventures. and we've survived...so far.

Monday was much, much harder for mommy than baby, but the truth is Chloë refused the sleep the entire time she was at daycare on that very first day. When I went to pick her up her eyes were so bloodshot, and red, and she was so tired, and sleepy, she fell asleep immediately after I nursed her for almost 3 hours--and after waking up, was still sleepy through dinnertime, and again fell asleep pretty quickly at bedtime. During this whole sleepyness, my little pumpkin managed to sneak in 3 nursing sessions between 3-7pm--a record for her. On Tuesday despite sleeping for one whole hour (!!) in the morning at daycare, she still fell asleep pretty quickly at home, and again, nursed like she'd never see me (or my breasts!) again. Today was a better day ...she wasn't as tired, despite still not sleeping like she does at home (30 mins in the am, and 1 hr 45 mins in the pm...versus our nearly 2 hr naps at home) and it was also my first day dropping her off. So...despite the lack of sleep, she's been eating like a champ, and also has not cried at drop off! Mommy on the other hand...can't vouch for the no crying here.

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dear chloë--a letter written some time ago

dear chloë,

soon you will be starting daycare. it doesn't seem like such a big deal if you think about it really quickly, but from where I'm standing, it's a huge deal--like someone once said, one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind--or in our case: one small step for Chloë, one giant leap for mommy. the transition from nanny to daycare will be tough, they say. for me, not so much for you.

we've been hanging out together for over 10 months now..I sit in my room, or in the office working away, with the knowledge that you're just down the hall, playing with your nanny, and sometimes I even hear your giggling or babbling. everytime I sneak in a few minutes of playtime with you, whether it's during a bathroom break, or if I'm grabbing a snack, the smile in your face when you see me (sometimes even my footsteps make you giggle in anticipation!), it just melts my heart. even the initial crying you do when I walk away is endearing, because I know it'll soon be over, and it's just really because you wish I could stay and play all day.

please know that daddy and I have made the decision to send you to daycare so you can meet other babies and get to hang out with some cool older kids. trust me, while you may miss home during those first few days, soon enough you'll love it there. and if mommy looks like she's crying on those first few days when I drop you off or pick you up, please understand, this transition is probably much harder for me than it is for you.

and please know that as you get older, there will be many more times when mommy cries for reasons you'll only understand when you become a mommy yourself. so cut me some slack, and know that I love you so--

so, so much, and if you happen to tug at my heart when I drop you off at daycare on that very first day, I'm not sure if I'll be able to hold it together. so I ask you please--beg you--to try to be the big girl that you are and smile as I walk away, so I can manage to not cry while you can see me, because I'm going to try to be a big girl too.

the first time I held you.

**this letter was written several weeks ago on April 21st, and I never posted it because well, it was poorly written--it's all over the place. however, tomorrow is Chloë's first day at daycare, so ...here's hoping posting this will make me feel better and give me the strength I need to not break down in tears.

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our first father's day!

to celebrate Josh's first Father's Day, Chloë and I went to get him breakfast before he woke up. We went to the deli near us and it seems all the neighborhood mommies and babies had the same idea. Chloë made some friends, and we managed to get back before the rain started. Josh was pleasantly surprised with breakfast but made sure to ask if he could go back to sleep some more afterwards.

Later in the day we went for lunch at Ted's Montana Grill--a request by the dad himself--and had a great time. Chloë tried to eat the tablecloth, and had some lemonade to wash it down. She only spit up on the way home, so her dress survived our lunch out.

Before her afternoon nap we took some pictures to mark the occasion, and we tried to snap some of her cute teeth for all the grandparents that have been dying to see it!



my favorite picture of the day!


another favorite because of the crazy fun we were having.


more daddy time.


posing with daddy again.


smiles

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colby came to visit chloë

now say that 10 times in a row. FAST.

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completely not baby related: my flowers

and by my flowers, I mean, from my own
backyard, handpicked and arranged by
yours truly. so pretty, right?

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look who's 11 months today!

it kind of looks like she's crying, but she was happily shrieking.


this is her mean face!


and this is just pure excitement--after all, she's almost 1!

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we know it's time for a nap when...

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we (almost) have another tooth!

After debuting her first tooth, Chloë decided she was not playing any games, and a second tooth is about to make its grand entrance. You can see it desperately trying to poke out of her gums, and no surprise, she was very, very cranky today. I'm putting my money on that second tooth popping through by Sunday--Monday at the latest.

Here are some pictures after I managed to get her to smile a little bit after a super cranky day:


surprisingly chipper after a day of much fussing


if you click on this picture to enlarge, you can see the one
tooth that popped earlier this week, and the one next to it
that is about to break through.

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another first!

So she can't crawl yet, and she's not walking either, or cruising...but she CAN stand on her own, without holding on to furniture or our hands. Granted it's only for about 5-10 seconds before her legs give out and she falls on her bum, but my excitement at this first was so great--I felt like a little kid eating cake for the first time! I think she felt the same because her smile was to die for! When she can handle standing for more than a few seconds at a time we'll make sure to take some pictures, as I'm sure all the grandparents will be dying to see our cute little tiny pumpkin standing on her own. Oh, and with a one tooth smile!

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we have a tooth!

ok, so maybe it literally just broke skin, and it's miniscule as Josh said after he saw its little tip poking out from Chloë's gum, but after waiting weeks and weeks, thinking yay, she's really teething, then realizing it was taking foreeeeever and ever, it's finally here and now we all know why she was such a miss cranky pants yesterday.

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